Dragon's Layr!

I do not know why but for the past week.. my stomach has been hurting and i've felt like crying.. I thought it was about my finals but they're over and the feeling hasn't passed... with several other factors, I think i'm slipping back into depression and I do not know why..

Yo! Yo! Yo! It's your friendly neighborhood Dragon, the one and only Jayme.. back from months of idleness to leave you good folks a post.. the time away from me must've been painful but here I am!

Now I am here to write down some ideas but first let's get a few things straight.. yes, I like Naruto (the manga not the anime), I also own, have played, and beaten both Rise of a Ninja and The Broken Bond so in a way this will be a mini-review...

When I first played Rise of a Ninja, i'll be honest I thought it was good.. for like the first 5 minutes then the game just went downhill. This game is nothing more than a glorified fighter with coins and 'mini-games' thrown throughout the village... and missions that only give you points to strengthen your character. Throughout this game, you master 3 jutsu.. Chakra Concentration, Shadow Clone Jutsu, and Sexy Jutsu... now I can see the first two being decent in a battle but the Sexy Jutsu becomes useless in battle after getting it. I strongly believe it was put in as nothing more than fanservice to the male fans out there. Now don't get me wrong the fighting was good in this game but the story like with most anime-based games was completely butchered and even the downloadable Japanese voices didn't help. The story was also too much like the anime for my tastes, it stuck to it only adding in random side-quests during certain points. I believe this game should've been classified as a fighter instead of an RPG.

I played Broken Bond not long after it was released. Again the story was butchered and stuck too closely to the anime for it to be to my liking. The fighting was improved from the first one but like the first one, it should've been classifed as a fighter instead of an RPG. One thing I did like was the fact that all those annoying side-quests were removed. You can have multiple characters at the same time which makes up for the lack of jutsu available to you.


Now I have this idea for an AU (Alternate Universe) Naruto game that would take place around the time of the beginning of the game. All the characters from the series would still exist except there would be differences, such as the Uchiha clan wasn't completely wiped out... and a few other things.

Now this game couldn't necessarily be called "Naruto" because the main character is not Naruto or any other character from the series. At the beginning of this game you're taken to a character creator. It would start off by allowing you to pick your age, gender, and overall appearance. You'd also be able to choose your bloodline/family (which is why I said the Uchiha clan wasn't COMPLETELY wiped out..) or your sealed beast (one or the other not both), your village, starting stats (are you really strong, fast, or good with chakra? maybe you're a balanced person...), clothing (which can be bought and changed throughout the game).

After you create the character, you start out as an academy student in whatever village you chose and you either fail or pass based on your decision. You complete missions and based on your decisions throughout the game you can become the Kage of your village and wage war with other countries and villages either getting wiped off the map or becoming the most dominant village on the planet or if you choose the other path you'd become the most dangerous Missing-Nin possibly joining up with akatsuki.. the biggest things wouldn't change such as current Kage, Akatsuki members, the 3 Sannin, etc, etc.

The game is still being worked out in my head but I thought i'd place down the basic idea while it was still fresh..

It's been several months since I posted anything and even longer since I ranted but i'm not going to bore you and will just say this..

No matter how much you rant or bring it to the attention of people.. MSF will always be full of godmodders who know there godmodders but godmod because 'everyone else does it' which makes MSF about as fun for a lot of people as getting your nails pulled with a rusty pair of pliers..

So for those of you.. I say "hah!" I changed my character because people like you complained.. to the point where my characters cant even hold their own in a fight.. and why? so the "new generation" can come in and just say "screw it" and take it upon themselves to become godlike and whatnot..

THIS is why I dont hang around MSF anymore and why i'm a semi-permanent lurker in #MSF...

eh..

Hello People it's me your friendly neighborhood Dragon Girl, Jayme.. How have you all been? I know I know that your lives have been rather empty without me posting in this journal, haven't they? Well you're in luck i've decided to make a new post and guess what you're already reading it, surprising huh? Anyways let's get down to business..

It's been a few months since I posted a personal post so I figured after last night's dream that now was a good time to do so.. to let you in on the dream, my feelings, and what's been going on in my life.. not necessarily in that direct order.. so without further adieu

( Let's get this show on the road.. )

Ok just one thing of note for today..

WHO ARE YOU TO SAY WHAT GOD'S WILL IS?!?!

Did God come to you people and say "Hey, dude, this is my will.. spread it and be an asshole in doing so!" If he did then damn! What color are his eyes? Also.. that doesn't sound like the righteous god you all talk about, now does it?

Homosexuality? It's all about love.. I don't think God is gonna get his undies in a twist because one person loves another person of the same gender.. so here's what I have to say.. SHUT THE HELL UP YOU SELF-RIGHTEOUS PREACHING BASTARDS!

"God's Will" is against Child Molestation but the churches are wrapped in the taint of it.. so before you people start boycotting and protesting against Homosexuality and Gay Marriage, which is just as innocent as your every day wedding/love.. go after the child molestors who serve your GOD!

And that is my rant of the day..

06/02/2008 9:30 PM

If I put a bullet through my head would god be satisifed enough to stop putting my family through so much crap? I have a headache, my chest is pounding, i'm covered in sweat.. and none of the crap thats happening has anything to do with me.. maybe if I would've gotten a job sooner and moved out and helped pay for a lawyer to help my sister.. none of this would've happened.. I dont know what to do.. my entire life is crashing down around me and it hasn't even been a full 48 hours yet!

http://www.anonib.com/_genderbending/images/1379/chromosome_x07_anonib.jpg (You might need to copy and paste the link or it wont work)

:O Take a Hint, Mario Creators! I for one think this would make a great game and it would probably be enough to get me to buy a Wii! Also.. Kudos to the creator of this!

I have a new rant.. something I haven't really ranted about before..

What.. the.. f***.. is up with people groping, kissing, and taking pictures of me in #MSF lately.. they do this, then when I respond by trying to hurt them most ignore, shake off, or go "duh, heehee" and just continue to annoy me by either repeating the offense or making it worse.. some do it because they want me to TF them.. but even then they have DUMBASS characters that keep doing it anyway despite my warnings..

ITS REALLY ANNOYING! I DONT LIKE SEX RPS.. I've gotten to the point where im so emotionally closed off OOCly and ICly that my CHARACTER doesn't even blush anymore.. but when I say "Stop it" it doesn't seem to get through to them, it seems to process through their mind as "Do it again".. god..

I have no problem with simple kisses (especially when it comes to certain people that my characters have built a history with.. where its in fun or whatever) but then there are people.. some people I barely know that do it.. like im supposed to just grin and go "hahah" because thats what everybody else they do it to does..

So im gonna state it here.. I dont like sex RPs.. I dont like my character being groped especially when its not even part of an actual RP or any kind of history.. and its just in random "I want you to hurt and/or TF me" fashion.. ESPECIALLY if your not even gonna accept actual consequences for the stupidity of your character.. meaning if your gonna come up and grope/kiss my character.. then prepare to be hit with the force of an angry dragon girl (who prides herself on her strength and the strength of her hits) and I dont mean "ow" I mean "Ugh! I think my jaw is broke.. why? because I'm a pervert who never ever ever learns from my past mistakes"...



This is not directed at anyone in particular, nor is it meant to cause insult to anyone's OOC... this is simply a rant and a small warning.. that if it continues.. and the consequences are avoided/ignored.. then I will start unleashing UNAVOIDABLE strikes (if you can be a pervert, I can be a godmodder) to said characters...

its 4:30 in the morning.. im tired, so I might've rambled and made little to no sense.. but yeah..

"Equality is a lie…A myth to appease the masses. Simply look around and you will see the lie for what it is! There are those with power, those with the strength and will to lead. And there are those meant to follow—those incapable of anything but servitude and a meager, worthless existence.

"Equality is a perversion of the natural order!…It binds the strong to the weak. The weak become anchors that drag the exceptional down to mediocrity. Individuals destined and deserving of greatness have it denied them. The strong suffer for the sake of keeping them even with their inferiors."

"Equality is a chain, like obedience. Like fear or uncertainty or self doubt." - Darth Bane

My wishlist

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PS2
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Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
God of War
God of War 2
Xenosaga Episode II: Jenseits von Gut und Bose
Xenosaga Episode III: Also Sprach Zarathustra
Dynasty Warriors 5: Xtreme Legends


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PS3
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The PS3 itself..
Heavenly Sword
Resistance: Fall of Man
Ratchet & Clank Future: Tools of Destruction
Dynasty Warriors: Gundam


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Gamecube
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Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance
Super Smash Bros. Melee


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Wii
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The Wii itself..
Zelda: Twilight Princess
Resident Evil: Umbrella
Super Mario Galaxy
Bleach: Shattered Blade


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Xbox
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Jade Empire
Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic 1 (my old CD crapped out on me)
Fable: The Lost Chapters


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Xbox360
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Mass Effect
Bioshock
Assassin's Creed
Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wars
Halo 3
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My New Years Resolution is to own at least half of the games listed by the year 2009.. preferrably all of them..

Ok I have to ask.. who am I think of when I think of Blue Hair, Sword, and Attitude.. I remember someone with at least 2 of those 3 things but I cant remember..

Either way I found this great picture and I was wondering who it reminded me of.. because I blanked: http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd3/Black-DragonN/special4750237.jpg linkage for reference

also: http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd3/Black-DragonN/special4750246.jpg

http://www.thefump.com/fump.php?id=149 XD;

James/Jayme.. once a name that rang through MSF as one of the best fighters.. she fought regularly with the likes of MoS (and the Triad), Helel, and other people.. and stood her own..

Skip forward 3 and a half years.. and she has been downgraded to a stepping stone fighter and a lower-class RPer.. I dont have any creativity or ideas left in me.. and worst of all ive become like the guy who used to be a bigshot in the mafia.. but has been reduced to being nothing more than the punching bag for all the new people to plow through to prove their worth..

'fighting' isn't 'fighting' anymore.. if someone has speed.. their opponent.. has equal or greater speed.. then they spend 15 minutes.. going faster than each other until one disappears completely.. strength doesn't seem to matter either.. as people just ignore most normal physical attacks..

it doesn't matter if its MSF or any other RP place.. I just cant get a break.. I thought that taking on someone ive never fought or seen fight would fix that... AAAAANT! (Wrong Answer Sound) I was wrong..

MSF in general has been reduced to the dark god-like beings and the light god-like beings.. with sub-branches of "Wanting to destroy reality" and "Wanting to save reality" with a tiny bracket at the bottom for wannabe god-like beings.. if you dont fit any of those.. TOUGH LUCK having any fun around that place..

So anybody who knows me even the slightest little bit.. knows that when something ticks me off.. I usually speak out on it.. especially online.. well over the past several months ive become docile.. ive become soft-spoken and let alot of things slide.. but as of late.. a whole lot of hypocrites are springing up with "holier than thou" attitudes.. and while im still keeping my cool about it.. if they dont lose the tude soon.. im gonna have to give them a big "STFU already" upside the head!

Anyways.. just wanted to say that.. have a nice day everybody!

I had a dream last night.. and it felt so real.. I dreamt I was back in 9th grade again with all of my friends, first class of day 1.. somewhere deep down inside I knew it was a dream.. because some of the people I saw in this dream were in Class 2 and I was in Class 1 so we couldn't have been together but the fact is that I saw their faces so clearly.. not to mention the teacher that I hated wasn't there.. I loved this dream.. I SMILED in this dream.. and I could feel it.. it was a genuine smile.. and the depression that ive felt for several years seemed to lift away being back in 'school'... they even had a test which I knew ALL the answers too.. thats NEVER happened before.. my memory was better.. I was thinner.. I still had zits but I was 15 or so years old back then.. I was confident in the dream.. I sit in front of the air conditioner beside one of the girls (she wasn't in the class with me, in Real Life, she was in Class 2.. I was in Class 1) I crushed on for years.. but the inevitable happened like it always does when I am happy.. and I woke up..

Back then I hated school.. I wished it was over.. now I wish I could go back and do it all over again knowing some of the things that I know now.. I could've done so much better.. I could've prepared for life so much better.. but instead I screwed up my life.. November 6th.. next month.. I turn 24 years old.. and you know what I got to show for it? NOTHING..

I'm alone, I have no significant, my sister's annoy me, I worry that my mother and father could die any day, I worry about my nephews and nieces hurting themselves because of the stuff they do, I cant even stand to RP anymore, I want to die and everyday that urge gets worse but im too GUTLESS to do anything..

God I wish I would've done things better.. heh but wishes dont come true do they? I'd like to find a genie.. or see a real shooting star.. just one time and id be happy.. but their not real are they?

If I could wish for 3 things, they'd be the following:

1. That I was a girl.. both in everyone's eyes and their memories.. not changing major things.. but only how people addressed me, names, looks, etc..
2. That my memory and intelligence were better so that I could remember things much more clearly and quickly instead of having to go "uhh" everytime I want to think of or remember anything..
3. That id go back in time (physical as well as temporally) so that I was back in the 9th grade again just like in the dream.. but real

I wish life was like a story.. full of magic and wonder.. instead of like it is.. full of war and hate.. if magic was real.. ahh that'd be great, ya know?

Eh.. anyways.. im done ranting and wishing.. now im gonna go off and be worthless and depressed and cry for a little bit.. *waves*

thinking about starting or at least joining a pro-gaming team.. one that would go to tournaments and compete for money and profession..

:P but probably not.. maybe.. we'll see o.o id need a mask first to hide my face... too ugly to be taken seriously

So called Microsoft today.. their sending me another box to send my broken system back in..

Their also giving me a free game for sending me a broken system: Kameo: Elements of Power.. there were only 3 choices and the other two didn't sound all that good to me..

two or so weeks ago.. I got the red ring of death.. so I followed everyone's advice and sent it back to microsoft.. I got it back today..

1 and a half hours later.. 30 minutes included XBox Updates, and using the XBox Live Gold card they sent me.. the screen froze.. I rebooted.. and now I have the Red Ring of Death.. AGAIN!..

Microsoft.. GRRR! D: